I always felt His existence
And I knew that I can have a connection with Him
but with a different way
Then once I said to myself: there must be a better way
to know the creator
and I wished one day that I become close to Him
Oh Allah, keep them steadfast on the path of Eman
And grant them the highest ranks in Paradise
Just as you gifted them the guidance of the Qur’an
Guided …..through the Quran!
‘Guided through the Qur’an’
‘Living it is the sweetness of life’
‘Longing to the Lord, coming to Him’
‘To Him I submit my soul’
‘It is the light of the body and the heart’
‘I declare submission to Allah’
‘His verses are becoming lightening candles’
‘And the brightness overflows from my heart’
‘It is the light of the body and the heart’
‘I declare submission to Allah’
‘His verses are becoming lightening candles’
‘And the brightness overflows from my heart’
my name is Barbra
I am 24 years old
I am from Lilla Town, France
I am having my Master degree in social science
I embraced Islam three years ago
We met Barbra
at Lilla Town in France
Where she is studying
she is from a village at North France
She never heard about Islam there
The religion for my family was the fashion
We didn’t talk much about God
nor the spiritual believes
But I was always in connection with God
without knowing who is He exactly
I always felt His existence
And I knew that I can have a connection with Him
but with a different way
Then once I said to myself: there must be a better way
to know the creator
and I wished one day that I become close to Him
To be close to Allah SWT
It has a special sweetness
Only those who are sincere would find it
Barbra was very moved by the grace of Allah upon her
Because He had chosen her
And guided her to Islam
I went to Lille to join my post-graduate studies
I was at the students residance
There I met a student from Morocco
But she was not practicing Islam
And she doesn’t talk about it, her lifestyle was western
I didn’t know Islam from her
She suggested that I would join her in a vacation to Morocco
for 2 weeks
Having to pay nothing for living and food,
And the ticket was cheap
When I went there, I discovered something new
I was shocked!
As if we went to a different planet
Barbra says that the media always disfigure the picture of the Muslims
But there, in Morocco
She was shocked!
from the the way they act and their kindness,
And their continuous cheerfulness
And when I came back to France
I said: its time to have my own view about Islam
I was curious
Without prejudice about Islam
So, I started to
read the Qur’an and learn it
And write the verses in French….
I did a lot during 6 months
These 6 months weren’t easy for Barbra
Because she read the translation of the Qur’an very carefully
And she searched about the differences and the arguments and how they are defeated
And she discovered the other side of her personality
She is Barbra,
The believer of her creator
I tried to read the Qur’an and to understand it
I have a previous knowledge about Catholic Christianity
where I found so many things which are not logical
That’s why I left it.
She remembered those days, when she has read the Qur’an, for the first time
And remembered how Allah talked to her directly
It was a very nice feeling
and a very emotional one, at the same time
When I was reading the Qur’an
I was….
In spite of me being a strong person…I rarely cry
and I can stand the sufferings and I support people
After I read the Qur’an, and started to come closer
to help people….
I felt that I belong to Allah
And this is what I feel right now!
And I am the slave of Allah,
I feel that very strongly
We might be strong,
but we are nothing without having Allah with us
I very rarely cry while I am talking
I became positive that He is my Lord,
and I am just nothing in front of Him!
And without Islam, my life is meaningless!
Glory to Allah,
Some times…when…when
I am with these people who came to Islam
I feel how short we have fallen in our duty to Islam
I wonder what have we really done to serve Islam?
I mean…Glory to Allah!
A young girl…24years old….
When she remembers how she entered into Islam
And how Allah SWT, guided her
She realizes that Allah SWT, has blessed her with the greatest grace ever!!
It is the same grace that all of us are blessed with!
The great grace… of Islam!!
Why don’t we feel the value of this blessing?
What are we going to say to the prophet SAW…?
who had worked very hard, attentively to spread this Deen?
While we did not take it out of our lands or our countries!!
When are we going to work to make the Islam reach this place
We are responsible, Allah knows the best!
‘When my inside became so thirsty’
‘When my tears turned bloody’
‘And I feared that path leading to Hell’
‘I sought the Qur’an’
‘You are a garden keeping us alive’
‘You are a source of knowledge for scholars’
‘You are a rain cloud that we are expecting’
‘And the sky above it is the Qur’an’
‘Guided through the Qur’an’
‘Living it is the sweetness of life’
‘Longing to the Lord, coming to Him’
‘To Him I submit my soul’
‘Guided through the Qur’an’
‘Living it is the sweetness of life’
‘Longing to the Lord, coming to Him’
‘To Him I submit my soul’
It is the the reality
The woman in France
is not having the proper status
But the Islam gave her a great position
as complementing to the man
Because of our failure to do our duty towards Islam,
together with what the western media do to disfigure the image of the Islam,
One of the conflicts
which influenced Barbra
was the notion that Islam..
treats women with injustice and oppression!
And when she opened the Mus’haf,
She found a complete chapter named, The Women!
When I started to read the Qur’an
I was interested to know about
the situation of the women in Islam
I saw surat An-Nisa
So I decided to read it,
I came to verse 82
It says, that the Qur’an is different from the other books
in which so many contradictions are found
“Then do they not reflect upon the Qur’an?”
“If it had been from [any] other than Allah,”
“they would have found within it much contradiction”
Sure!
If this Qur’an is from people,
Or from another place other than from Allah SWT
we would have found discrepancies in it!
If this Qur’an
Is from human beings
we wouldn’t have the kind of unseen
that Allah SWT, discribes
If this Qur’an was from other than Allah SWT,
we wouldn’t have found the stories of the ancient people
Which we see now in the Qur’an
In the opposite,
The other distorted books
In which we find so many contradictions
‘Verses from the Qur’an’
‘Has an echo in my soul’
‘And tears downpour from the eyes with response to that call’
‘Oh Allah, keep me adherent on the righteous path’
‘Oh Allah, keep me adherent on the righteous path’
‘because what I fear most’ ‘ is the to have a bad ending tomorrow’
One night,
She was revising the pages which she had looked through several times before
under candles light
She thought!
Isn’t it the time to say the Shahada?
So, at the time for duhur prayer, she went to the close by masjid!
She came in!
I wasn’t wearing Hijab, I was in jeans trouser!
I came in!
So as to talk to the Emam
and see what is going to happen!
When I came in,
I went directly towards one of the brothers
And by chance, he was the Emam
I told him my story, and my wish to convert! and so on…
Praise to Allah,
He was very patient and kind,
He was listening to me talking!
Till another brother came
and told me that the Emam doesn’t know French
I talked to him for more than 10 minutes
and he was patient and didn’t interrupt me at all
That was on Wednesday,
So, the brother asked me to comeback on Friday
Then, Barbra went on time!
On Friday
There,
In front of everyone,
She said the Shahada
And she announced it loudly
that there is no deity worthy of worship trully,
except for Allah SWT
Really….the words can’t…describe this feeling!
It is.. I can’t…
I can’t describe it…realy..
Really…this life is meaningless…
If there is no such connection with Allah
I have this feeling all over me
It makes me feel complete
Not empty or superficial,
looking for materialistic things which I see now trivial
It gives a meaning for life
And makes things clear!
I believe that this feeling is from Allah
it proves His mighty
This feeling is really huge….
There is no word which can describe it….
It wasn’t difficult for Barbra to tell her family about her being into Islam
But the problem was
to wear the Hijab,
in a community which rejects the modesty
There was no problem when I became a Muslim!
But after one year, when I put on the Hijab,
It is not usual to wear the Hijab in France
It proves that you are Muslam
And every one looks at you as if it is a bad behavior
The portray of Islam is very distorted here
I had to tell my parents about my getting into Islam
It was difficult!
because of the picture of Islam
but we need to talk together!
I told my mother on phone
good that there was a long distance between us
I was at the east side, and she was at the south
I said, Mom, you always wanted us to talk together …..
At the beginning I felt frightened to wear the Higab
At the first week, I thought every body is looking at me
And after 2 weeks, no body even noticed me at all
And what I was doing became natural
because I was doing it for the sake of Allah
That was the best way to help me be patient
And face the world!
‘ My Qur’an’
The verses of my Qur’an made my soul delighted… My Qur’an’
‘My sorrow’
They shrank and the roses sent their fragrance on my banks’
‘I recited it, and the scent of the letters’
‘went in my blood, my tears and all my body’
When women want to style their hair or color it,
They search to find the best hair stylist
But when thing are about religion or so…
We must think deep about religion,
And always go to a knowledgeable sheikh or Emam..
because this is far more important than styling our hair!
Barbra!
After she became Muslim, she is very keen to give Dawa to Non-muslims
And specially,
the Frenchwomen
I believe, when we are in a non-Muslim countries
this is our destiny, and we have a role to do here
We can’t say this is not a Muslim country
and we should leave!
We have a role to do here,
we are the ambassadors of Islam
It may be difficult, but this is our duty
We Muslims have a great responsibility
towards non-Muslims
We must teach them how Islam is a good religion
And it is for the best of mankind
And help them to enter into Islam
Now Barbra
Is responsible of helping the new reverts
She is trying to convince them to get into the masjid
she debates with them
And explains the true Islam for them
things are exactly the opposite to what is broadcasted on Media and internet!
Even her wish,
was for the sake of these reverts
My project is to provide books for the reverts as gifts
So, I arrange them in gift packs
It is like a start up collection,
and to help them learn the Qur’an
And we need books to
help them go deeper in the learning process
As, ‘Reyad Al Saliheen’ and the ’40 Hadeeth Nawawia’
‘I walk on the path of my Qur’an’
‘And see its kind dawn shines’
‘I recite it and memorise it and reflect upon it’
‘I walk on the path of my Qur’an’
‘The spring and the joy of my days’
‘My friend, the one who knows my dreams’
‘The cure for my sorrow and my complains’
‘It heals my bleeding wound’
‘The spring and the joy of my days’
‘My friend, the one who knows my dreams’
‘The cure for my sorrow and my complains’
‘It heals my bleeding wound’
‘Then when I repent and come back’
‘To the path of the words of the Lord of the Bait’
‘I find the grace and the comfort’
‘I was guided through the Qur’an’
‘I was guided through the Qur’an’